ALICE

 My sweet Alice Jolene was born 2 years ago today. Last year in the midst of getting Olivia home and settled and making sure she was breathing, coping with the pains and memories of the birth of my sweet angel was passed over. I think part of me did it on purpose, thinking that if I ignored it, it would go away. Well here we are again and the pain is still real and the longing to be with her is even more now. I miss her every single day, I wish for her and want for her every day. There are so many what ifs and why nots that it's hard. You may think that this is not healthy and maybe it's not, but it's real.

 Happy birthday sweet Alice, I love you so much and I hope you get to have birthday parties in heaven because you sure do deserve one.

I am eternally grateful for being able to know that my Alice will be mine forever. Knowing that if I work hard doing the things that I know to be true I can be with her again. I am not convinced that she is where she needs to be, but in time I will get there and in time I will be with her. Someday I will have all my children with me and that day my heart will be whole again.

Playing and Moving

 Olivia loves playing with her toys and she is getting around so much now. Above she is sitting up like a pro!

 Happy Girl!

 At the end of October she learned how to get around enough to get stuck!

Our friend Katie let us borrow this and Olivia is still trying to figure it out.

September

September was a good month. We got into our new house and was settling in, getting used to not managing apartments. The following pictures are of Olivia. The change in housing has also changed Tayce's work schedule and he is gone a lot, so it is Olivia and I a lot. Luckily Tyler comes to visit us. 

Olivia loves to watch out the window, especially if the neighbor kids are out playing. She just talks away and tries to get their attention, it's cute. This was new to her, she didn't have windows she could do this with in the apartment.

Since Olivia has learned to roll she's leaning to get around a little and she is loving to play with her toys a lot more.

She also loves to get my phone, she's pretty sneaky.

LOVE this girl!

There is a little attitude for you.

Sometimes Tyler comes over for his lunch break and eats dinner with us. This night Olivia was very interested in his food. He shared, but she wanted to get all of it out.

She must have liked that! :)

Oh the many sleeping poses this little one has.

Olivia loves fruit leather and fruit ropes. They are messy, but she loves them!

What a cute girl, in the outfit Grandpa got her.

Slacker!

I totally have been a slacker. I won't make any excuses, I just didn't feel like it. Other things seemed more important. Tonight I am having a hard time going to sleep so I figured I would catch up a little.

TYLER and OLIVIA's Birthday Party!
(September 1, 2012)

 Tyler and Olivia's birthday cakes made by my mom and I (mostly my mom).

 We had so many good friends come and support us on this day. It was Labor Day weekend, so we knew it would be hard for many, but they came. What great friends we have.

 Blake and Caleb manning the grill! Thanks MaLynda for letting us borrow it!

 Owl cupcakes for everyone (and batman ones). It was fun making those!

 Oh there is my brother! The big 24! And Tayce bought him trick candles.

 And the birthday girl! She was a little concerned we put that whole thing on her plate. She looked at us and looked at the cake for a minute.

 She slowly checked it out.

 Was not thrilled by the the taste or texture...

 But, eventually she got over it. :)
It was a nice weekend and a lot of fun. My mom and Tay's parents were able to come. It was great and we loved it, it's crazy that it is already November!